I like this new guy, he’s loud, obnoxious and excitable. I don’t expect anything from him. I message him, he messages back. We agree to meet at social gatherings out in the comfort zone of our friends. We meet, we say hi, he gets awkward and conversation ends.
Last night he introduced me to his friends, the two that I met were two rugby guys and one of their girlfriends. They were cool, and I get the vibes that they think I am cool but slightly intimated by me - Id say in a good way. I guess it is because I have now been at uni for 3 years and they think I am a second year (also did foundation year so it doesnt count) and I seem to associate myself with people “older/above” them of which l am not and we have alot of mutual friends.
I like them, maybe one day we will all hang out together.
Matt is in love with one of the rugby boys’ girlfriends. I don’t blame him she is a small blonde girl but perhaps too good for him. I have observed him, he always tryin to get her attention. How doesnt the other rugby get annoyed? I know he likes her but I have also observed there is nothing deep except for convenience, companionship and sex.
I want to ask Matt to come on an actual date no pressure, one where we will get know each other a bit more. One where he fan drop his dickhead persona or so I think. He might just be an actual nob but I do thinknhe gets nervius talking to me like he doesnt known what to say.
An interesting point I would like to make is I dont think I would like to have sex with him unilnhe reallynlearns to appreciates me as a person, I want him to be able to love my body just as it is. I also think him being with a black person wouldnbe treading new waters for him. This is why he needs to appreciate me first, Im scared he wont like me.
If we do meet and it is dry then I can say I expected nothing from this,